Let the Light in by Alexa Scarboro

Author:Alexa Scarboro [Scarboro, Alexa]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: anonymous
Published: 2023-12-25T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twenty-One

Lucy

Dr. Fitz was incredibly understanding about my time off request. Dr. Marsh, however, is very concerned.

“What do you mean you and Wyatt are going to the beach this weekend?” she asks.

“I feel like it’s pretty self explanatory, actually,” I mutter.

Dr. Marsh narrows her eyes at me. “Lucy. I’m not sure this is a good idea. What does your mom think?”

I take a deep breath, fold my hands in my lap, and look directly at Dr. Marsh. She wants honesty, I’ll give her honesty.

“Mom won’t go to the beach house. At all. When I asked her about it, she said she didn’t know if she would ever be able to set foot back in that place. She says it’s covered in memories of my father and she has a hard enough time getting out of bed in the morning, let alone driving two and a half hours. She also said the house was in my name, so I would have to sign the documents and take care of the situation anyways. Does that answer your question?”

Dr. Marsh watches me for a few minutes then sits her notebook and pen on her desk behind her. She crosses her legs at the ankles and leans forward slightly.

“Lucy,”

“Yes?”

“There’s something you’re not telling me.”

“And what makes you think that?”

“Because you wouldn’t be this angry over a beach house. There’s an underlying issue here, and I think you should tell me about it.”

I close my eyes and pull my bottom lip in between my teeth, chewing at it.

“There’s nothing to tell, really. Before my dad died, he thought I was unhappy with my career path. And he was planning on telling me that when he told me about the beach house. That’s it.”

“That’s not it, Lucy. What else?”

I bite my lip harder, feeling the tears stinging behind my eyes.

“There’s nothing else.”

I hear Dr. Marsh sigh, “I won’t push you, Lucy, but I just really feel . . .”

“Everyone thinks they know what’s best for me,” I mutter.

“I’m sorry?”

“Everyone thinks they know what’s best for me,” I repeat. “Everyone else figured out I was unhappy before I did, because apparently I was stressing myself out. I was giving myself panic attacks. Turns out I’ve been broken long before my dad died, that’s just what did me in.”

“You’re not broken, Lucy.”

I open my eyes and the tears fall. “I am, though. I put all this stress on myself to be as perfect as possible all the time. I thought my dad would be proud of me if I followed in his footsteps and that’s why I should go into the medical field. That’s what I told myself anyway, that I was doing it for him. But I wasn’t. I was doing it because I was scared.”

“And what were you scared of?” Dr. Marsh asks gently.

“I’ve always known I wanted to be an author. But I treated writing as just a hobby, and I told myself that it wasn’t a practical career path to pursue. That I couldn’t make a living off it.

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